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Perfection is He

Where nothing is relative,

You see the flaws inherent.

Since perfection exists,

Its absence is apparent

In varying degrees,

But any separation

Is in some form

An absolute negation.

 

If perfection is beauty,

Then the closer you reach

Toward the standard

Across the breach,

The greater the emanation

Of undiluted splendor

Illuminates the vile

Unto knowledge and surrender.

 

And perhaps, per hopes,

You bear a greater reflection,

Of the unattainable,

Unavoidable perfection

That radiates all light,

Encompasses all flame,

Breathes all life,

And speaks your name.


Hope

I have feared hope.

Always preparing to be interred,

I have treated hope

As the brother long deferred.

 

I have smothered hope,

Guarded him as a trickster

A monkey’s paw in gifts

And nothing is a fixture.

 

I have glimpsed hope,

And even now my spirit trembles.

I have seen the truth,

Which in no way resembles

 

My fearful musings,

Or the dread I keep looming

To flood or suppress

The hope that keeps blooming.


Holy, Holy, Holy

 

 

More than romance or rescue,

Or the grandeur of what You do,

More than the tragedy of our insurrection,

Or the compassion in Your affection,

 

You are Holy, Holy, Holy.

 

More than a savior, more than The Source

Replacing stony hatred with warm remorse

And weaving sorrow into joy complete-

Washing the creatures’ dirty feet

 

You are Holy, Holy, Holy.

 

Before all time began, and on beyond

Before the stars bowed to respond

To the voice of their Architect-

Before the death You resurrect

 

You are Holy, Holy, Holy.

 

Before I learned to bow the knee,

Or grasp You as my guarantee,

Or see the Truth in everything-

Before I ever learned to sing

 

You are Holy, Holy, Holy.


Homecoming

Over the bridge I thought I burned;

Has this trip home been decades late?

Yet I remember every turn,

And every smell, and every taste.

 

Memories scattered by the road

As wild poppies on the highway,

Past each new bend an old bloom grows;

And not one has died away.

 

Following the flow of paint and tar;

Headway through the pain and loss.

Sorrow never stretched so far,

Nor was a greater ocean crossed.

 

I pursue my childish apparition

And the smell of salt in the air-

Have I forgotten my root system?

I am from somewhere.

 

I reach the end of land,

The end of me, the end of running

Chanting waves on cluttered sand

Sing the forgotten into forthcoming.

 

All these years of mourning

A land that never died.

A sudden break in storming;

Nothing is lost. We are alive.

 

Staring into the waves and wind,

Until the sea stares into me.

I remember who I’ve been,

And who I may still be.


Communicating with You

 

 

All these words come pouring out

Like booze from the bottle,

Screams from the bereaved,

And some things aren’t throttled.

 

You take me with a grain of salt,

But I know you haven’t been

Walking the same bitter earth

And dark hour I’ve lived in.

 

So when we are done sparring

With syllables and sentiments,

And supporting self-aggrandizement

With our petty resentments

 

Maybe I’ll hear you, really listen,

And maybe you could lower your defenses

To see what I’m weaving isn’t

Dangerous or wild or senseless.

 

We could commune

In honesty of thought and speech,

And love could end the war;

Love could bind the breach.


Through the Looking Glass

I don’t call it by name

Because that’s an invitation-

I live on the river bed,

Underneath civilization;

I’m so still, but I feel the constant flow.

I didn’t know-

Rock-bottom isn’t a location,

But a perspective;

An after-taste of damnation

Intensifies redemptive mouthfuls.

I sank like doubtful,

But His fingers lifted my fixations

From a muddy grave.

I rely on His instigations

To prevent my constant sinking.

And the ebb and flow I’m drinking

Is His pulling me from desolation,

And my thanks,

And my falling from consecration

To my familiar perspective.

My sin is introspective

And narcissistic contemplation-

And are these blues

Sin- or the excavation

Of repentance and remembrance?


The Devil in the Deep Blue Sea

Break, my little boat, break,

Through the tempest, out to sea.

Hear in the howling winds aswirl

The final song I sing.

 

Close up my regrets and sorrow

Below deck, in rhythmic dark.

Let all my love and hope sing

Above board as you embark.

 

It’s time, my little boat, it’s time,

You do not need your oars.

The current has you now,

And now the current’s yours.

 

Keep your course, watch the stars,

Bear the bitter winds that blow.

Carry on, my little one,

You carry precious cargo.

 

When you reach the other shore,

Give love its castle-keep,

But do not free my sad regrets

Take those to the deeps

 

Then sink, my little boat, sink

Into some mysterious abyss.

Go down into the depths

Where all the ghosts live.

 

So my widow’s walk alone in sand,

Searching the gray skyline,

Won’t yield my empty little boat,

Sea-soaked in the sour brine

 

Of memory and regret.


Hulk

No longer seaworthy, and the hull
Is wrapped in a cloak of barnacle
Though buoyant once on ocean sprays-
Skimming along on sun-bright waves
While lovers held their sailor’s trysts
Paltry secrets in salty mists
This noble vessel of silent wood
Kept secrets no one living could,
Season again, to cut the wake;
To drink the tide, to thirst and slake,
Until dry docked just lengths away
From the beckoning crystal bay.
Falling vacant to disrepair
Surrounded by the fresh sea air-

The death in view of every eye,
To live, to sail, to yearn, to die.


Revel

Perhaps

I’ve learned to mourn

But not rejoice.

I know the wail,

But not the lifted voice

Of joy.

 

Do

I forget I live

In the throes

Of victory?

On the bones of foes

Picked clean

 

and white washed

by decay and the elements

of Truth?


I’ve mistaken His forbearance for forgiveness,

His patience for permission,

My obeisance for obedience,

My subtlety for submission.