I was your secret
while the sun blazed
I could keep it
while your crazed hatred
still burned.
I was your secret,
through each new season
I refused to speak it
Fear finding new reasons to
stifle myself.
I told your secret
here in the cold,
where the wind repeats it
to no one, and the old
world is dead.
I told your secret,
and some small child
inside me sneaks
to see if the wild sun
can burn here,
or if I’m as safe
as your secret has been.
I silenced myself
I shut up my mouth, my pen,
Because of the sorrow in my soul
I feared the sin in my heart
I stopped proclaiming
You freed me to speak
The stagnant pool of death
The bitterness of my bones
Rotting my flesh from inside
But You have brought my fear to point
You have goaded me to fear You,
Healing my decaying flesh
With obedience in humility
Bringing refreshment to my bones
And I honor You
With this body of death
That You alone make alive
I lean on You to loose my tongue
To praises as You guide me
My King Eternal
