Blessed and… Happy?

Your blessing requires suffering,
Jacob gained Rachel,
And lost her, and Joseph too
Until his last years
Spent in a foreign land
Amongst foreign gods.

David gained a crown
After toiling for an enemy
He wanted to be a brother,
And then loved a son
Who wanted to be his enemy.
Blessed with sons
Who brought tragedy.

You blessed Saul
Changed his name
So he could face shackles,
Beatings, imprisonments,
Ridicule and distortion,
Martyrdom.

What is the substance
Of Your blessings?
Eternal?
Or changing existing matter
Into something this world
Rejects like an immune system
Rejects a foreign object?

The ones You bless
Don’t belong here,
But here belongs to them
In all their trials and crucifixions.