Always You

Asleep again, and fever dipped
So gripped by dream
I can’t awake
Or shake free a morning beam
To stir the day, or to redeem.

And all we gathered on our way
Stays within our view.
We navigate our space
Facing all we cannot do,
Or be, or claim as true.

But the truth leaves my lips,
A sip of all things
That happen beside time
Mine and your paintings,
In flesh and fainting.

But I was deceived
You achieved all you desired
In my absence
My passions left unfired;
My allegiance uninspired.

In that moment she came
Your same, your one, that’s when
I saw in my blindness
Your kindness was compassion
Not love, but a pitiful reaction.

They mocked my flaws,
According to the laws of woman’s choosing
And you frowned silent
Compliant, but disapproving
Of the superfluous bruising.

I’ve wandered long
One song in my chest,
But no one in need of the tune.
How soon I’ll return to broken rest,
And it is always you inside my breast

Sunk like an arrow.