I cannot give you a careless word
Nor bear those already heard;
Pelted at Your heavenly ears
Before my blinded lips were sealed.
We scrape for momentary silence
In this realm of clanging violence,
And catch glimpses of Your face
Only in serene or somber places.
Solid skies with twisted stars;
Traces of light, unattainable, far
Removed from hearts, from hands-
We treat You like we understand.
I do not understand, cannot comprehend
A love that dwells in my darkest sins
And rises again to defend
With grace: A love that mends.
I see You in majestic storms
That shake the heavens, bellow warnings,
But drench with needed rain.
I tremble every time You refrain.
We are arrogant, sniveling creatures
Who boast and brag of our fleshly features
And ignore the fury in Your grace;
Your gentle, but relentless pace.
May I never forget Your heart:
A consuming, restless fire, You start
To tear down every inner wall
Just when I finally knew it all.
I don’t know You at all. I can’t comprehend
A God who bends around my rends
To love an enemy-
Which is all I am.