Discouragement

I want to lie down,

Let waves of years wash over me.

Days ebb and flow, I drown

In the numbness and oddity

Of time wasted and hoarded.

This simple test, this vapor,

Passes so slowly by my broken watch.

Even as these hours taper,

I find brand new chances to botch,

And throw away.

Can you hear my ticking heartbeats?

If you can’t, I am alone.

I curl up in defeat,

A heavy, dead stone,

Until you speak life to me again.