Regenesis

It feels like You’re talking to me
More frequently again;
Please hold me close.
Is something about to happen?

I don’t like the striving world.
I don’t like the constant tug-of-more.
Always shoving to grab
We were made for

The opposite thing.
I died in this place,
Will You resurrect?
Move with grace

Like You do with a seed
That falls to the ground.
Somehow through the death
You cause life to abound.

I am grateful
For all You’ve provided
All You’ve protected
The way You have guided.

You can do anything.
And I no longer care
What You do-

Just keep me close to You.

I’m ill-fitted for anything else.
I’m done, but You, be known
In mercy, in love- I’ve run dry.
I’m by necessity alone.

I’ve don’t have what people usually want.
I’m exhausted to be.
I can’t pretend; I don’t wish to try.
Do You still want me?

Why do You want me?
I’m sorry I wasted me.

You’ve been so generous.
Help me believe,
Not what’s wrong-
Help me see

The beauty You weave.
Help me sing You a new song.

I want to feel happy.

Here You are again.

(Waiting outside the ER on a Tuesday. )