Faithful Redeemer

I want to blame the ones
Who have disappointed me
Who could have extended a hand
To help pull me
From these choppy seas,

But it’s all on me.

I should have seen.
I should have known.
If I had only listened
To You alone,
If I’d relinquished my groaning,

I wouldn’t be here.

I am not listening right now,
In this dream sequence I live in.
I hear You’re still speaking,
But my sin taunts me to give in,
To forget the language of heaven

To embrace the darkness.

I know it will undo me
But I feel my numb fingers
Reaching for the clasp
On Pandora’s Box, I linger
I hear Your people sing

Your promises.

I have never been enough,
But You have never deserted me.
What comes next scares me,
But You have preserved me
Through all the lies that hurt me,

That have carved into my soul.

In my brokenness
When there was nothing left
I begged You to fix Your love on me.
I am now caught in a godless cleft,
I live bereft

Of Your tender virtues

But Your grace isn’t just for the broken,
It’s for the breakers, too.
I am not innocent before You
Unless Your blood slakes
My guilt, unless You take

Loving me as seriously as You promise

And Your promise never expires.

Fix Your love on the traitor in me.
Finish what You’ve started,

Even if I’m not building anymore.