Adriftwood

Forgive me
If my love wasn’t deep enough.
We’re all still here;
Was it really that tough
Or was I too sensitive?
He’s a man
Not a monster,
And he still stands
While I fall and flounder
What did I think I deserved?
What could I have possibly sustained?
At least he’s had the constant nerve
To remain no matter what
No matter who
I turned out to be.
I wish he loved You.
I feel like I’ve judged him harshly.
What has he actually done?
Have I forgotten something important?
Why was I desperate to run?
Have I burned him out now?

Please don’t let me make him worse
Because I exaggerate what is.
Please don’t let me conflagrate
The years here for my kids.
I’m tired, and all my decisions
Are bad, I know.
I yield to the rising tide-
Direct its flow

Around me.