Another Day and Dollar

Father,

I am here.

And I know You are.
Today, I feel overwhelmed,
But I believe You
Are still at the helm.

Thank You
I don’t deserve what You do.
Thank You for promising
You will make all things new.

There is no corner of my life
I feel joy to inhabit,
Except the one that dissolved-
But I can’t have it.

Forgive my failure
To give proper thanks to You,
To enjoy Your good gifts,
Or give credit where it’s due.

I am grateful, but sore.
I ache to be done
With the days in between
What I’ve lost to the run,

And the promise You’ve won.

I can’t imagine feeling good again.
Every victory feels like an empty wind.

But I am here.
I’m still all in.